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oh no I am so sorryat this point the only way to make it stop is to fuckin off myself then i never have to deal with this shit ever again and i can finally have some damn peace. every day every week every fucking hour im going insane. they wont STOP. NOBODY STOPS. ITS SOMETHING NEW. JESUS CHRIST.
there's nothing i can do to move forward. nothing works. nothing i can do. they dont care. everybody in this building is a dickhead.
i was such in a good spot mentally to move forward with myself and then the MOMENT i start getting work done everybody around me has it has their fucking mission to ruin it. and when its not one, its the other. im at my breaking point i cant handle it anymore. my shitty brain cant handle it. i cant focus i cant LIVE. i cant LIVE. panic attacks, outburst, i cant fight it off. if i try to do anything, i panic. so all i can do. is lie down and try my best to zone out and wait until its over. which could be up to hours.
i have like maybe 1-2 hours of mental freedom and then its over. im so sick of this can i go back to having a proper life or should i really just die because this is never gonna end whats the point
My step mother is rather nasty toomy overthinking is my demon. it never leaves me alone. its the cause for everything. i can never enjoy life bc then it makes me think im disgusting, the most useless, terrible person on earth. i want it to go away.