I'm struggling over a hump. No, not hump day, but a hump that's slamming me back down and making me cry.
I feel so discouraged over my journey of being healthier and losing weight. I maintained the EXACT same weight this week from last, which really is a good thing: I didn't gain any, and because it's the exact same weight it's probably the water weight from water filling my fat cells after the fat has left my body. BUT. It still discourages me.
I'm taking small steps - small changes in my exercise every day and small changes in my diet - to try building it slowly and maintaining it for a lifestyle change, not just a rush to lose a lot of weight in little time. This is where it becomes discouraging, because I feel like I'm not going fast enough, I'm not doing enough to get the weight off, to see the change, to feel the change, to notice the change. Like. I'm working so hard, but it's not even a drop in the ocean of this journey, and I have so many more drops to fill said ocean.
I'm sitting here feeling like all this work I've been doing is making no dent, and why even try? But it has made a dent, I actually do feel a little better, my measurements are a little different from last week than they are this week, and I think even my chin/neck is a bit smaller (that double chin whale gullet is slowly slipping back up into my jaw I think? or I'm just lying to myself, who knows) but I still kick myself and think "do I have to practically kill and starve myself to be healthy and a lower weight? wtf?"
Ugh I need encouragement.