I think it's okay to feel this way even though I'm sorry you do... Loneliness is a part of life, sadly... but there are things that can be done and chances are, sooner or later, one way or another, this will change because nothing in this world is everlasting.. You could ofc also try to go out more, be more open, meet more people.. I wish you luck, you seem like a lovely person <3As i grow older, i feel like my life is turning into nothingness and i feel so alone, one by one of those who i love depart this world, if there is a second life, i just wish to meet them again and relive my life again with them. My nephews and nieces don't visit me often as they grow older, they were everything i could hope for, i love them so much. now that i am usually alone, I am rethinking my firm beliefs that i should not get married & procreate in this life to do my part for earth. Even my friends are married now living their lives, i don't want to intrude. Since then this site has been my only refuge and baby that i care about most time of my daily time.
What should i do? What can i do?
I'm tired of always being alone. I haven't had friends in over 10 years and the feeling of loneliness just keeps getting worse as each day goes on. Back then I didn't mind it as much, but now that I'm older it's getting worse and I realize that it's even harder to make new friends my age. I can't just easily go out in public and make new friends due to my anxiety issues that I'm still trying to work out. I've expressed to my mom and therapist how much it's getting to me. It's making me feel more depressed, but my mom doesn't seem to take as seriously as my therapist does. I've talked to my therapist about different ways to put myself out there to meet new people but it just feel like nothing will work out. I'm currently doing group therapy (and individual therapy) but it feels like being in a group isn't helping the loneliness, especially since most of the people in my group are older than me. I already hate it and don't even feel like trying with it anymore. It feels like no matter what I do to make friends, nothing works. The feeling of loneliness is starting to become overbearing and it makes me even more depressed. My depression is starting to get to the point where I'm not motivated to do anything and I have no interest in things that I actually enjoyed before. Each year I'm always reminded of how lonely I get on my birthday, new years, etc. I get reminded that I have no one to celebrate anything with. I'm getting sick of it. I just don't know what to do anymore.
I know but you have your own things to worry about and me bothering you with MY stuff and drama isn't any good for anyone tbh......You could have told me, Eun-Ae. I would have tried to help. I tears ME apart to know that you've cried so much because of someone else. I don't want you to bottle this up inside like I did. It doesn't help. I've noticed that you've been so distant lately and I hate it. I want the best for you and you need to know that. I say this so many times to you, but I really care for you and you can talk to me. I've had so much on my mind lately but seeing you not being yourself has worried me. You can say that you've been acting the same but, I'm your best friend, I know what your normal is.
I love you. Come back to me.
But I like it when you talk to me. And bother me with your worries. I love it when people come to me for help. It makes me feel like I can help in a greater way than just being their friend. You can talk to me about other things besides Kpop... I am happy but I want you to be too...I know but you have your own things to worry about and me bothering you with MY stuff and drama isn't any good for anyone tbh......
i hate when other people worry about me so don't please, don't worry, be happy, okay? i promise i'm fine and i WILL be fine.
It always works out, no matter which way it goes, easy or hard....it always goes back to the better days.
So don't worry, i hate it, it cause's trouble and i don't want you to be caught in the cross fire.
I love you. I never left.
I like talking to you too but no worries. I'll be happy if you aren't worried.But I like it when you talk to me. And bother me with your worries. I love it when people come to me for help. It makes me feel like I can help in a greater way than just being their friend. You can talk to me about other things besides Kpop... I am happy but I want you to be too...
Your existence is beautiful and needed though hun.... I'm glad you're alive <3When your heart is hesitant, you can't expect people to understand that sensitivity because only you live with your mind and truly understand it. I've learnt that, and I won't get hurt anymore if no one understands but myself. I've lived my life up to this point and who knows to which point, without sensing my depression, loneliness and confusion have faded. As a child, I was always filled with curiosity and asked why instead of accepting several aspects of living. Now that I've grown up, I feel like these questions have stopped being sources for the adults to praise me for being able to think and speak so well, the way they did back then. I should stop pondering now that I'm an adult, because the beginning that started when I knew nothing could end me now. I'm an empty and lonely person. A lot about life feels pointless, and I just feel sorry to my family more than anything. I have these dangerous thoughts, if I was going to turn out like this, I would prefer if I didn't exist at all. If I was just going to put an end to it all along, I should've never been in the frame. My life really was meaningless.
Amazing song but I'm sorry you feel this way. Stay strong, things will come around..well i'm not that confident in my self is very low. Cause of people call me people say black people are strong well i'm kinda the opposite yeah my pain tolrent is high but word hurt me a lot really mentaly i'm not ok even tho i say i am really it cause know what this song will exsplan i not doing this to be funny like this is how i feel
look at the lyrics and you understand cause i can't really explan how i feel
It's okay, it's a beautiful and precious thing to be sensitive and the feeling of pain is what allows us to be kind to others, cherish that... I'm sorry about your hardships too
u know some time when i know no one see me i think about my life and cry. i did think about killing my self but i want it to be no pain but i could not find away. i try to run away but i want to go to collage. i know that people just stab other people in the back. no one understand me at all think about it make me cry i'm trying not to cry right now. i never told anyone this in real life cause i did once and people at my school pity event he people i tho was family hurt me right now the only thing i'm hang on is move to asia and finding some who really love me for me. but the love part is falling a part i wish i had a shoulder to cry in real life but u know this is online i use to be nice but u know tired of every thing. really i know it better if i disapper with out no one know. it the best for everyone. word hurt me more thaan any punch or kick that have been throw. i have been beat up a lot like a lootttt lot some place still hurt. like a spot on my neck still hurt from my little brother half brother beat me up when he mad at me. people in real world sterotype me as : strong but really i'm really gental and can break eazy my feeling can be hurt to. some time i just curl up in a dark a place and cry.really i hate myself for who i am. my dream i never going to come real i'm never going to get to china i don't even know why i haven't run away or just kill myself
What do you do when you find out one of the people you've looked up to for years now, whose videos had provided countless hours of joy and laughter and smiles during some of the darkest and most depressing years of your life, that were some of the very rare things that could do that...
What do you do when you find out, as verified by multiple sources, screen-caps, and even an entire professional article, that this man has now become a power-mad narcissist who lies about everything in order to paint himself as a hero amongst men and actively encourages his legions of fans to dox someone over a video someone made constructively criticizing him? To ruin their life, their career, threaten them with violence, find out where they live, where they go to school, who their friends and family are... There's even a screen-cap of one of his fans going to that criticism video on YouTube, threatening to out the video-maker as a "rapist," and the person all of these people are fans of leaves a comment under that threat simply saying, "Holy shit."
As in... "Holy shit, bro! That's the most evil thing I can imagine! HA! Keep doing it! Go, go, go!" He literally sees his fanbase going after this guy like a mob and all he can say is, "Holy shit."
There's more. A lot more. But none of you guys are into this community and know who all these people are that are involved, and I'm just venting anyway...
I'm so disappointed in this guy. He's a great musician. He's been a staple of the guitar community on YT for years and years and years now. But ever since he became a businessman and launched his own electric guitar company and got to be the boss of others, a switch must have gone off in his brain that made him realize, "Oh yeah, I'm a badass now. Look at me. Woo! I've got a wife now, I've got a kid, I've got a dog, I'm in two beloved bands, one of whom topped the UK rock charts at #1, everyone loves me... I'm now beyond reproach and f*** you all."
What makes me feel super dirty and icky and gross about all of this is that I actually supported him by buying one of his guitars. I thought up till now that I was giving back just a bit to this man who's helped me so much. And now I can't help but be disgusted by it. I just want to sell it off now.
I'm just so upset. How do you go from making a video like "Ways to stay artistically motivated and not lose faith in yourself and your dreams" to... all this?
So many people have made videos about you now, damning everything you've done and said. There's no hiding from it now. No more lying. This is your legacy now. Why did it have to come to this? I no longer want to be like you.
how disappointing, sorry bestie *hugs*
I'm so sorry.... sounds like such an impossible situation :(( please stay as strong as you can, I am here if you wanna talk .. <3I'm a whinny bitch, but anxiety has been causing me to faint few times and also feel nauseous,sleepless,unproductive. I tried going to pharmacy asking for meds and they all rejected me for not having a prescription. What a shame because if I tell a doctor about it my parents would find out as well... ig i'll just screw my exams up.
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