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I don't think that would make you useless. Nobody can really save someone else, you can only inspire someone and give them some strength and courage to save themselves, give them the will to fight you know.. so try not to be too hard on yourself



Wow I feel like crying.. First of all, I am really sorry. In the name of the universe, I'm sorry to you..... that life has been unjust, that people have been cruel because I don't feel like you deserve that. It's honestly so unfair and even though I won't pretend to know what you've been going through, I somehow can relate to your words.. I want to be your friend if that's okay <3 and also, a precious lesson I've learned is that when everyone turns their back on you is when you should learn and choose to live for yourself. I know very well how painful loneliness is, believe me, but you still have yourself and you are worth fighitng for. There's a lot you can do on your own too, but I do believe that sooner or later, there will be someone who will treat you well (it took ages for me too but it happened in the end). Do what you believe is right, do what makes you better and happier. You can be happy, you're not alone <3
Thank you. Your words mean a lot. I’m still trying to search for a passion or distraction of some kind to focus on, so that I can live for myself. No luck yet, but I’m trying. I hope there will be someone, but I’m trying not to put too much energy in that department. It’ll only make me more open to disappointment. Though, I do wonder that if someone did come along, how will I know if they’re genuine? Perhaps it’s a trial and error process.

And being my friend is more than okay with me, but don’t worry. I’m not the clingy type as much as my rant might make someone believe. :) My messages are always open. Thank you~
 

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Thank you. Your words mean a lot. I’m still trying to search for a passion or distraction of some kind to focus on, so that I can live for myself. No luck yet, but I’m trying. I hope there will be someone, but I’m trying not to put too much energy in that department. It’ll only make me more open to disappointment. Though, I do wonder that if someone did come along, how will I know if they’re genuine? Perhaps it’s a trial and error process.

And being my friend is more than okay with me, but don’t worry. I’m not the clingy type as much as my rant might make someone believe. :) My messages are always open. Thank you~
no need to thank me and that's okay, sometimes these things take time, but just continue to try out different stuff. It's tricky yeah.....putting yourself out there will probably get one hurt and disappointed, but it's also a chance to find good things. As for how you will know.. I think you can feel it (though be careful because some people are good manipulators) but still, little things, words, and gestures give it away

you don't need to explain anything, I'm not worried at all ;)
 
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no need to thank me and that's okay, sometimes these things take time, but just continue to try out different stuff. It's tricky yeah.....putting yourself out there will probably get one hurt and disappointed, but it's also a chance to find good things. As for how you will know.. I think you can feel it (though be careful because some people are good manipulators) but still, little things, words, and gestures give it away

you don't need to explain anything, I'm not worried at all ;)
Thank you. I'll keep that in mind. :)
 

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Today has been probably one of the worst of my life (I'm probably sounding dramatic) lol its 3am I got work in 3 hours and can't sleep I want to do something drastic and no not to myself not like that to someone else.

I dont want to go to work honestly, I cant be bothered. (Which ain't like me lol) I'll get over myself. Anyway. I just hope nobody bothers me today. Is going to be a long day.

At least these beats in my earphone give me some sort of distraction thank God my job lets me listen to music.
 

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Today has been probably one of the worst of my life (I'm probably sounding dramatic) lol its 3am I got work in 3 hours and can't sleep I want to do something drastic and no not to myself not like that to someone else.

I dont want to go to work honestly, I cant be bothered. (Which ain't like me lol) I'll get over myself. Anyway. I just hope nobody bothers me today. Is going to be a long day.

At least these beats in my earphone give me some sort of distraction thank God my job lets me listen to music.
I don't wanna bother you either, just gonna say hopefully you feel better soon..
 

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I don't know why, but I've felt super depressed for the passed week or so. Of course I felt depressed beforehand, but it's just hitting me really hard for some reason. I brought up to my therapist, and even my mom, that I've been feeling empty. I just feel like there's a void I need to fill, but I don't know how to fill it. One minute I'm fine and then the next minute I start dwelling on my thoughts and I feel awful. I'm just feeling lonely, empty, and anxious about the future. I don't like being left alone all the time anymore. I just want to make friends who are my age or to be close to someone, not constantly be alone. After so many years of not having friends and no other close relationships, it's starting to take a toll on me. I guess I'm somewhat close to my mom, but nowhere where we used to be. I've expressed this to my mom, but she doesn't really say much about it and sometimes she doesn't think much of it. I'm hoping that she'll go with he to see my psychiatrist this week. The only thing is, I don't want to take a whole new medication again. I'm already on four of them and I don't want a fifth one.
I've also noticed that I've been incredibly bored with almost everything. Almost nothing sounds fun to do. I used to enjoy going for walks every night, but it's gotten to where I sometimes just don't want to do it. Sometimes I just have to force myself to go outside and do it. I've tried crafting again and I'm just getting bored of it already. No matter what I try to do, I get so bored and feel so uninterested. I either just sit on my laptop or I just lay in bed for who knows how long. I just feel like I'm wasting the days away. I'm trying to take my therapist's advice trying to do things that'll make me feel happy and doing things that make me feel like I accomplished something. It's just hard to get myself do any of it. I hate this much. I just want it to stop.
 

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I don't know why, but I've felt super depressed for the passed week or so. Of course I felt depressed beforehand, but it's just hitting me really hard for some reason. I brought up to my therapist, and even my mom, that I've been feeling empty. I just feel like there's a void I need to fill, but I don't know how to fill it. One minute I'm fine and then the next minute I start dwelling on my thoughts and I feel awful. I'm just feeling lonely, empty, and anxious about the future. I don't like being left alone all the time anymore. I just want to make friends who are my age or to be close to someone, not constantly be alone. After so many years of not having friends and no other close relationships, it's starting to take a toll on me. I guess I'm somewhat close to my mom, but nowhere where we used to be. I've expressed this to my mom, but she doesn't really say much about it and sometimes she doesn't think much of it. I'm hoping that she'll go with he to see my psychiatrist this week. The only thing is, I don't want to take a whole new medication again. I'm already on four of them and I don't want a fifth one.
I've also noticed that I've been incredibly bored with almost everything. Almost nothing sounds fun to do. I used to enjoy going for walks every night, but it's gotten to where I sometimes just don't want to do it. Sometimes I just have to force myself to go outside and do it. I've tried crafting again and I'm just getting bored of it already. No matter what I try to do, I get so bored and feel so uninterested. I either just sit on my laptop or I just lay in bed for who knows how long. I just feel like I'm wasting the days away. I'm trying to take my therapist's advice trying to do things that'll make me feel happy and doing things that make me feel like I accomplished something. It's just hard to get myself do any of it. I hate this much. I just want it to stop.
That's very relatable... I think some good things you could do are write your mom an honest letter, she might take you more seriously that way because it seems she doesn't realize how you feel right now, and also start a new hobby. It sounds cheesy but it really does freshen up your life. It might not work right away, so keep trying and know you can always talk to me, good luck <3
 

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That's very relatable... I think some good things you could do are write your mom an honest letter, she might take you more seriously that way because it seems she doesn't realize how you feel right now, and also start a new hobby. It sounds cheesy but it really does freshen up your life. It might not work right away, so keep trying and know you can always talk to me, good luck <3
Thank you so much. ❤
Luckily my mom was bit more comforting to me yesterday when I got upset. I got her to agree to going to the psychiatrist with me tomorrow. Hopefully things will go well. ❤
 

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What do you do when you agonize over whether to publish a certain poem or not online, because the subject is really important to you but you're unsure how your friends will react, so you finally post it, then are an anxious wreck afterwards, and when you finally work up the courage to go and check on the poem, you find out pretty much all of your friends dismissed it? And I know they could just be busy, but from other activity, I also know they were all active at various points while I was away, even checking out my other poems. I feel so gutted. But lost most of all. Like, what do I do with myself now? ._.
 
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What do you do when you agonize over whether to publish a certain poem or not online, because the subject is really important to you but you're unsure how your friends will react, so you finally post it, then are an anxious wreck afterwards, and when you finally work up the courage to go and check on the poem, you find out pretty much all of your friends dismissed it? And I know they could just be busy, but from other activity, I also know they were all active at various points while I was away, even checking out my other poems. I feel so gutted. But lost most of all. Like, what do I do with myself now? ._.
honestly people probably didnt even read it, dont be offended usually when people show self created things people in general dont tend to look into it. although it was personal to you they probably just saw it as like one of those common online quotes.

if you want you can share it with me, I love poetry to and I can give some feedback if you like, dont take it to heart they probably didnt even read it.
 
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What do you do when you agonize over whether to publish a certain poem or not online, because the subject is really important to you but you're unsure how your friends will react, so you finally post it, then are an anxious wreck afterwards, and when you finally work up the courage to go and check on the poem, you find out pretty much all of your friends dismissed it? And I know they could just be busy, but from other activity, I also know they were all active at various points while I was away, even checking out my other poems. I feel so gutted. But lost most of all. Like, what do I do with myself now? ._.
aw don't worry too much cutie, it's really no big deal. You shared a poem, especially that kind of poem and that's brave. Whether others react to it and how they do it is not in your hands, so try not to worry too much <3
 
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honestly people probably didnt even read it, dont be offended usually when people show self created things people in general dont tend to look into it. although it was personal to you they probably just saw it as like one of those common online quotes.

if you want you can share it with me, I love poetry to and I can give some feedback if you like, dont take it to heart they probably didnt even read it.
You're right, they probably didn't, but thankfully I'm feeling better about it now :) Thank you *hugs*

It's actually kind of bleak, haha, but if that's okay with you I definitely wouldn't mind sharing it c: I truly appreciate the offer. And I could definitely use the feedback.

aw don't worry too much cutie, it's really no big deal. You shared a poem, especially that kind of poem and that's brave. Whether others react to it and how they do it is not in your hands, so try not to worry too much <3
Thank youu *hugs* You're soo right... I just need to be stronger and more rational about it in the future c:
 

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"Taking your own life. Interesting expression, taking it from who? Once it's over, it's not you who'll miss it. Your own death is something that happens to everyone else. Your life is not your own, keep your hands off it."

I don't know if it's weird that this quote makes me feel better because of how bad it makes me feel for how I feel. It's just better than being told what I feel and think is important, it's not until something like that happens and this makes me feel bad enough to stray away from allowing myself to dwell on that. I want to see how far I can go in my life, despite being like this. Nothing I feel ever makes sense to be put in words anyway, and all people see in me is this hardworking girl who is understandably a bit cold and quiet at times but otherwise, someone who looks perfectly well. Not one person in my life sees me for who I really am even if I shout it, why don't I see that as a positive thing that I'm respected or considered good? It's hard to when you don't even feel like a person, and your mind is an empty room with enough glass shards to consider not going in at all. You don't feel put together at all, but you're pretty good at acting like it so why give up now? To only cause pain to others, you already went through pain on your own and you're capable of dealing with this. That's how this quote makes me feel for some reason. I like that it's challenging, rather than comforting.
 

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"Taking your own life. Interesting expression, taking it from who? Once it's over, it's not you who'll miss it. Your own death is something that happens to everyone else. Your life is not your own, keep your hands off it."

I don't know if it's weird that this quote makes me feel better because of how bad it makes me feel for how I feel. It's just better than being told what I feel and think is important, it's not until something like that happens and this makes me feel bad enough to stray away from allowing myself to dwell on that. I want to see how far I can go in my life, despite being like this. Nothing I feel ever makes sense to be put in words anyway, and all people see in me is this hardworking girl who is understandably a bit cold and quiet at times but otherwise, someone who looks perfectly well. Not one person in my life sees me for who I really am even if I shout it, why don't I see that as a positive thing that I'm respected or considered good? It's hard to when you don't even feel like a person, and your mind is an empty room with enough glass shards to consider not going in at all. You don't feel put together at all, but you're pretty good at acting like it so why give up now? To only cause pain to others, you already went through pain on your own and you're capable of dealing with this. That's how this quote makes me feel for some reason. I like that it's challenging, rather than comforting.
Very interesting quote. It's something I've thought about a lot as well. I don't think you should feel bad about not considering being seen as someone who is well a good thing. It's perfectly natural and normal to need someone to see you as you see yourself, at least at times because we all want to know that someone would accept and love us even then
 
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You're right, they probably didn't, but thankfully I'm feeling better about it now :) Thank you *hugs*

It's actually kind of bleak, haha, but if that's okay with you I definitely wouldn't mind sharing it c: I truly appreciate the offer. And I could definitely use the feedback.



Thank youu *hugs* You're soo right... I just need to be stronger and more rational about it in the future c:
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