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I’m not sure if this really belongs in the mental health thread or not, but’s it’s still kind of freaking me out. Last night I was trying to fall asleep and I noticed that it felt like I couldn’t move. I also kept hearing noses and it felt like something was trying to get me. It happened to me two times last night and I almost had to go get mom because it freaked me out so much. It felt like I was just paralyzed and couldn’t open my eyes or mouth for a few seconds. I’m almost scared of falling asleep tonight. I just hope it doesn’t happen again. I haven’t told my mom yet because I’m afraid of what she’ll think.
It’s sleep paralysis. I get it also under extreme amounts of depression and anxiety which I know you’ve spoken of before. So it means you’re bottling internally and it’s effecting your sleep.

Please focus on yourself too Mew Mew :c just take breathing at times. Find some things that may soothe you.
 

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It’s sleep paralysis. I get it also under extreme amounts of depression and anxiety which I know you’ve spoken of before. So it means you’re bottling internally and it’s effecting your sleep.

Please focus on yourself too Mew Mew :c just take breathing at times. Find some things that may soothe you.
I actually figured out that it was sleep paralysis when I looked it up today. I didn't know much about it until now. I guess I really do need to take some more time to relax and focus on myself. I definitely need to fix my sleeping schedule too. My anxiety has been going up and down lately so I really need to get some more sleep and destress more often.
Thank you, Koala.
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I've always been a heavier girl, and lately I've gone back up in weight by quite a lot, unfortunately.
While normally it doesn't bother me that much (it used to wreck my entire life, honestly, but in the past few years I've actually been a lot happier with myself physically) I apparently have been really fragile emotionally lately. I stepped on the scale because I knew I'd been gaining weight, I could feel the slight tightness in my clothes in certain areas and could see it in my face, being bloaty but.....

It still hurt me to step on the scale and feel I've let myself down.

I already started earlier this week trying to eat better, drink more water, eat less, and get in some slight exercise (starting slow and trying to build up; I hate, hate, hate exercise....but I want to come to enjoy it, I really do).

I know things take time but....I hate feeling so fat and gross, so much like I'm ugly because of the added weight (even though I keep trying to remind myself that I'm beautiful, and that even with added weight I'm still me and still beautiful) but I just. IDK.

I can't stop wanting to cry. I can't stop looking at the weight on my face in the mirror or feeling the pudge at my waistband pressing and making me feel just...horrible about myself. The way I put weight on is awkward too. It literally sits on my stomach and looks awkward like I'm pregnant - but I'm not. I'm just waiting for someone at work to say "oh, congratulations!"

Thanks. It's all the fat my body is storing like a camel preparing to make a trek across the Sahara.

I need a hug. A big, cuddly, warm one.
 

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I've always been a heavier girl, and lately I've gone back up in weight by quite a lot, unfortunately.
While normally it doesn't bother me that much (it used to wreck my entire life, honestly, but in the past few years I've actually been a lot happier with myself physically) I apparently have been really fragile emotionally lately. I stepped on the scale because I knew I'd been gaining weight, I could feel the slight tightness in my clothes in certain areas and could see it in my face, being bloaty but.....

It still hurt me to step on the scale and feel I've let myself down.

I already started earlier this week trying to eat better, drink more water, eat less, and get in some slight exercise (starting slow and trying to build up; I hate, hate, hate exercise....but I want to come to enjoy it, I really do).

I know things take time but....I hate feeling so fat and gross, so much like I'm ugly because of the added weight (even though I keep trying to remind myself that I'm beautiful, and that even with added weight I'm still me and still beautiful) but I just. IDK.

I can't stop wanting to cry. I can't stop looking at the weight on my face in the mirror or feeling the pudge at my waistband pressing and making me feel just...horrible about myself. The way I put weight on is awkward too. It literally sits on my stomach and looks awkward like I'm pregnant - but I'm not. I'm just waiting for someone at work to say "oh, congratulations!"

Thanks. It's all the fat my body is storing like a camel preparing to make a trek across the Sahara.

I need a hug. A big, cuddly, warm one.
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Big hugs from a Koa.

It all takes time. I used to have more weight on me,too. And it was worth it getting into the swing of things. You can still have the foods you love but in moderation. Even some small walks can do the trick till you work up going longer. You don’t need to do the high intensity stuff. Just up water intake to help the bloating in the face. You can also add in some fruits. Some lemon slices in once awhile helps detoxify the skin and inside. Also decreases bloating. Enjoy some herbal,too.

Just take small steps. You’re wonderful the way you are but if you’d feel more wonderful. I will cheer for your journey and so will many of us. You’re still a cutie with a heart of gold. But if you’ll love yourself and with this journey you may feel love in yourself. Then we will all support you.

Good luck,TaeKitty!
 

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My best friend is now officially gone. Tyler...he left everything. I can’t fucking breathe. This was all so sudden. He’s gone and I can’t see him ever again. How could he die like this. I just want to go back. I can’t feel at peace. He was so damn strong but I can’t be for him...I don’t wanna be here anymore. I fucking hate this world. It shouldn’t be like this
 

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My best friend is now officially gone. Tyler...he left everything. I can’t fucking breathe. This was all so sudden. He’s gone and I can’t see him ever again. How could he die like this. I just want to go back. I can’t feel at peace. He was so damn strong but I can’t be for him...I don’t wanna be here anymore. I fucking hate this world. It shouldn’t be like this
My words will never offer in this time,but I hope you will remain strong and remember the good times you’ve had with him. If you need to. Please take time for yourself to just mourn. We’ll be here for you. He adored you very much. Stay strong small flower. The world is a cruel place. But please focus on healing and remembering the good youve had
 
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It all feels empty. My days just feel blank. I was already in a bad place and now its even worse. Suicidal thoughts are back again. I sat in my room all day today. I couldn't bring myself to do anything. I was excited for spring break some time ago but now its like a curse, I don't have any reason to get out of bed or do anything. I haven't ate anything in over 24 hours, my insomnia is as bad as ever. I want to leave. I don't want to be on this earth anymore.
 
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It all feels empty. My days just feel blank. I was already in a bad place and now its even worse. Suicidal thoughts are back again. I sat in my room all day today. I couldn't bring myself to do anything. I was excited for spring break some time ago but now its like a curse, I don't have any reason to get out of bed or do anything. I haven't ate anything in over 24 hours, my insomnia is as bad as ever. I want to leave. I don't want to be on this earth anymore.
Izz, please stay strong. You just got through a big loss. It will take awhile to get better. Give you time to grieve. Reach out to someone you can trust, familie or friends, or even someone here. Know that if you wanna talk, we’re here to listen. ,
 
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I've always been a heavier girl, and lately I've gone back up in weight by quite a lot, unfortunately.
While normally it doesn't bother me that much (it used to wreck my entire life, honestly, but in the past few years I've actually been a lot happier with myself physically) I apparently have been really fragile emotionally lately. I stepped on the scale because I knew I'd been gaining weight, I could feel the slight tightness in my clothes in certain areas and could see it in my face, being bloaty but.....

It still hurt me to step on the scale and feel I've let myself down.

I already started earlier this week trying to eat better, drink more water, eat less, and get in some slight exercise (starting slow and trying to build up; I hate, hate, hate exercise....but I want to come to enjoy it, I really do).

I know things take time but....I hate feeling so fat and gross, so much like I'm ugly because of the added weight (even though I keep trying to remind myself that I'm beautiful, and that even with added weight I'm still me and still beautiful) but I just. IDK.

I can't stop wanting to cry. I can't stop looking at the weight on my face in the mirror or feeling the pudge at my waistband pressing and making me feel just...horrible about myself. The way I put weight on is awkward too. It literally sits on my stomach and looks awkward like I'm pregnant - but I'm not. I'm just waiting for someone at work to say "oh, congratulations!"

Thanks. It's all the fat my body is storing like a camel preparing to make a trek across the Sahara.

I need a hug. A big, cuddly, warm one.
Awh I relate.. my appearance is one of the things I struggle with every day and among other things, I always want to lose weight and think I'm too big, but it's so hard... but look, in the end it's our health and hearts that matter and there's no such thing as loving someone for their looks because that's never love.. the people who love us will stay by our side because of who we are. So what if you gained some weight? You're only human and look at you, already working on getting in shape! Keep working on losing weight if that's what you think you should do, but also work on accpeting and loving yourself. It will take some time and effort, but you will get there. Stay strong and good luck <3



My best friend is now officially gone. Tyler...he left everything. I can’t fucking breathe. This was all so sudden. He’s gone and I can’t see him ever again. How could he die like this. I just want to go back. I can’t feel at peace. He was so damn strong but I can’t be for him...I don’t wanna be here anymore. I fucking hate this world. It shouldn’t be like this
It all feels empty. My days just feel blank. I was already in a bad place and now its even worse. Suicidal thoughts are back again. I sat in my room all day today. I couldn't bring myself to do anything. I was excited for spring break some time ago but now its like a curse, I don't have any reason to get out of bed or do anything. I haven't ate anything in over 24 hours, my insomnia is as bad as ever. I want to leave. I don't want to be on this earth anymore.
I'm so sorry for your loss :( but please try to stop for a second and breathe deeply, have something healthy to eat and drink some water, please.. call someone you trust and just let yourself hear someone's voice, at least.. I know nothing I say can make it better, but please try to take care of yourself during this hard time and know I'm here for you <3
 

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To have all these thoughts following me everywhere, they might just be meaningless thoughts now. I wonder what it would take for me to really jump. Take them. Do it. Is it a matter of time? I can't seem to grasp onto anything long enough to be normal, be okay, connect. I'm always left trying to understand like I do for just about anyone but myself. I'm someone trying to give each day my all. I never allow how I feel to be an excuse for anything. What's so wrong about me as a person? I don't think I can feel bad for the way I treated myself, it's difficult enough to even think this matters. I hate myself. I need someone to know this side of me and not be in my life. No one would believe how I feel because of how I seem. Or it's uncomfortable to say I'm sad when the reasons for it goes beyond what I can explain. Or it starts problems as it always does. I wish I was lying, and that I was actually happy. I'm used to feeling alone, despite being surrounded by people. I don't know why I'm hesitant about the sessions, I might not have the words. If I haven't been able to express even one tenth of what I think and feel so far, what makes me think I could do so just because it's going to be set out like this. I'll give it a try. What have I got to lose when I tried so much up to now, nothing except probably myself and that’d be okay if I didn’t feel so guilty thinking about the aftermath.

I never got to say how much I understand what it’s like to feel out of place in your own life, like an error that was never meant to be there, and now it’s too late because there is no one I know who is like me without you. They say you’re not yourself when you consider it, and then not in control when you actually do it. People apparently lead up to it without a choice in the matter, but when is anything anyone ever does something meant to happen? If it were that way, a lot of gaps would be filled by the people who left like that, and none of it would happen at all. The excuse of meant to be never makes sense to me, as many times as it’s explained. Meant to be is the way things are supposed to be, saying that people who think similarly were meant to be wiped out isn’t what I’d call ideal. Then eventually finding happiness is. It’s a mistake that people feel like mistakes or worse, and that ends up happening.
 
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No matter how hard I try, I’m going to be disappointed in myself no matter what. It’ll never be good enough for me. I don’t even know why.
 
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No matter how hard I try, I’m going to be disappointed in myself no matter what. It’ll never be good enough for me. I don’t even know why.
Whatever you’re doing, at least you’re trying your best. Think of all the people who love you and think about how they think of you. Don’t be disappointed in yourself!
And if you ever need help, just contact me. We are here for you.
 
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I’m not sure if this really belongs in the mental health thread or not, but’s it’s still kind of freaking me out. Last night I was trying to fall asleep and I noticed that it felt like I couldn’t move. I also kept hearing noses and it felt like something was trying to get me. It happened to me two times last night and I almost had to go get mom because it freaked me out so much. It felt like I was just paralyzed and couldn’t open my eyes or mouth for a few seconds. I’m almost scared of falling asleep tonight. I just hope it doesn’t happen again. I haven’t told my mom yet because I’m afraid of what she’ll think.
i get it from time to time too.
 
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i wish i had a nice family that cares about each other instead of this abuse.. i am always the only one who try to keep peace, so selfish of them.
i am so exhausted i just want this to end....
 
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Whatever you’re doing, at least you’re trying your best. Think of all the people who love you and think about how they think of you. Don’t be disappointed in yourself!
And if you ever need help, just contact me. We are here for you.
Thank you.
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i wish i had a nice family that cares about each other instead of this abuse.. i am always the only one who try to keep peace, so selfish of them.
i am so exhausted i just want this to end....
Sometimes it can be hard, but just remember you are doing all you can. If you need help, talk to someone-a therapist or someone you trust.
 
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I'm sorry these many unpleasant thoughts and feelings are always bothering you...all I can say is I'm always here for you and praying for your happiness <3

No matter how hard I try, I’m going to be disappointed in myself no matter what. It’ll never be good enough for me. I don’t even know why.
The good news is that's something you can work on, you can accept yourself someday and I believe you will. I hope you can realize that you're a wonderful person (I still don't know you well, but that's the impression I got hehe) <3

i wish i had a nice family that cares about each other instead of this abuse.. i am always the only one who try to keep peace, so selfish of them.
i am so exhausted i just want this to end....
That's awful, I'm sorry to hear it... I've been through it too and my advice is to take care of yourself and do what's right for you. Being related to someone doesn't make them family if they are repeatedly hurting you. I'm always here if you wanna talk, stay strong because one day you'll be free from this and there'll be a whole new world for you <3
 
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I'm sorry these many unpleasant thoughts and feelings are always bothering you...all I can say is I'm always here for you and praying for your happiness <3



The good news is that's something you can work on, you can accept yourself someday and I believe you will. I hope you can realize that you're a wonderful person (I still don't know you well, but that's the impression I got hehe) <3



That's awful, I'm sorry to hear it... I've been through it too and my advice is to take care of yourself and do what's right for you. Being related to someone doesn't make them family if they are repeatedly hurting you. I'm always here if you wanna talk, stay strong because one day you'll be free from this and there'll be a whole new world for you <3
Thank you!
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