need help
if my brain didn't process everything in the worst way possible i could actually properly live
constant cycle of either a shut down or a panic attack or a outburst
i dont think there's anything that can help me.
im not in a position where im able to move either.
dude life sucks so bad right now
if it wasnt everyday it wouldnt be as bad as a problem but because it is its just building upon itself.
i cried at work yesterday because i was too scared to go home because just the thought of its killing me.
i KNOW its going to happen and when its not happening its the fear of waiting for it to happen.
i hate being thought of as being overdramatic about this or whatever because if you dont go through this yourself you really can not understand what its like to have it.
nothing ever works to block it out. i just have to wait until its over and wait until it comes back around.