Alright,I feel safe enough to post this. This is just something I wanted to say
This morning I woke up,and I didn’t shake. My anxiety didn’t kick in. I didn’t curl up in a ball and cry. I logged onto cord,and felt safe. I wasn’t going to get PM’s,I wasn’t going to get mauled on past places I’ve been. I felt safe for once,and being around people who don’t prod me and don’t want me to release everything felt nice. I felt like I was belitting myself. To believe people’s words,and to think I changed. I’m glad I didn’t. I’m glad I kept to myself,and still remained kind. I’m glad I protected my loved ones. I’m glad to be here. I’m alone in Life,and I feel like I’m surrounded here. Online life is toxic especially for my mind,but I’m glad I can feel safe and surrounded by the ones who matter.
My heart doesn’t feel heavy anymore,and I haven’t had shakes and random breakdowns.