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My anxiety levels seem to be at an all time high lately and being 200% paranoid on top of that, doesn't make anything better.
I ran into a friend I knew years ago. Said nothing to me, like I don't exist. Fuck that shit.

He was my best friend for 6 years then ditches me over an episode I have.
some friend he was. :(
That's awful... Sometimes people don't care, sometimes they do but don't know how to deal with some things... I hope the right people find a way into your life ❤
 
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Thank you. I think I’ll try that (well, when I’m alone probably ).

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That's how I started, it takes awhile before it starts working, but eventually it became instinct. I've managed to laugh myself to stitches (figratively) thinking how rediclous I looked laughing when I am panicking. Then started laughing harder at the idea I am panicking and laughing. It sounds a mess but much better then a full on anxiety attack all the time.

It's basically learning how and when to use your bodys over rides. Like coughing when you feel like your about to start crying.

Can't make yourself laugh and you feel anxiety coming start watching kpop crack videos on youtube.

And remember hang in there
 

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I just took 5 days worth of my meds at once. I'm literally so pathetic, but I feel like I'm over the moon. Maybe if I get addicted it'll convince my mom and therapist to actually let me know what it is they give me every day.. I can't live for myself at all, can I?
 
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I just took 5 days worth of my meds at once. I'm literally so pathetic, but I feel like I'm over the moon. Maybe if I get addicted it'll convince my mom and therapist to actually let me know what it is they give me every day.. I can't live for myself at all, can I?
TT no that's not healthy
Keep hanging in there, you'll make it
 

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TT no that's not healthy
Keep hanging in there, you'll make it
Thank you, but I just don't even know if I care at this rate. I'm so tired, so done. I wish I knew where the rest of the goddamn bottles were at. It's not like anyone irl would even notice. :///
 
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Thank you, but I just don't even know if I care at this rate. I'm so tired, so done. I wish I knew where the rest of the goddamn bottles were at. It's not like anyone irl would even notice. :///
Just keep thinking that this time is eventually gonna pass. There will be a time when you will be happy and all of this will just be a memory.
 
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I just took 5 days worth of my meds at once. I'm literally so pathetic, but I feel like I'm over the moon. Maybe if I get addicted it'll convince my mom and therapist to actually let me know what it is they give me every day.. I can't live for myself at all, can I?
please don't do that hun.. I think they are very wrong not to let you know but they probably mean well.... you will live through this, you will get better.... I truly believe that <3
 

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My anxiety is so horrible lately. I just want to lock myself up in my room and never leave. Of course doing that brings anxiety too, though. There is literally no escape. I just wanna be happy. Meds just aren’t working much.. I guess it’s not like they did a lot before though.
I know how you feel. If you ever need someone to talk to, just shoot me a DM, and I'll always answer. <3
 

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I pay so much for bills its unbelievable, how all the stress accumulates easily, when you miss a payment fudge.
 

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sounds crappy.... sorry to hear it. Try and be careful with your spending and money although I'm sure you already are hehe :)
Not really. Like my twinny I have bad spending habits.
Money just goes towards things I do not need all the time, just for the sake of spending.
 

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oh I see.. but the good news is that's something you can work on :)
I've worked on it before, but I always end up spending.
Too addicted. (it's like cocaine to me) buying stuff all the time...
I get high off spending, like I feel good afterward like a high,
then get miserable later on.
 
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Friend: Why the heck are you wasting your time learning German? Do you know what the people here are like? You're going to be treated like crap if you come here. It's not worth it, sweetie. Trust me.

Me:

Friend: Hey, you okay?

Me: Yeah, guess I really don't belong anywhere, huh.
Germany has tons of people from other countries, some poeple mind but some don't.. if you surround yourself with the right people, it'll be okay... just keep chasing that dream bestie no matter what they say <333
 
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One year and one month has passed since my suicide attempt. It’s hard. Why is it so hard to live.
I'm so sorry you ever suffered to that point.. I don't know your situation but please stay strong and hold onto your hope... Life is everchanging and these bad things will surely pass too... I am here for you <3
 

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I've been told that time heals, but all time has done is let my heart ache even more. You can't put a time on how long grief lasts, but I always thought that now, nearly a year later, I would feel somewhat ok. I just... I want my best friend back. Some days it's easier, and I can just appreciate the days he was alive, or at least believe that he still is... but most days it just hurts. Emotional pain is the worst, every day it feels like I'm getting stabbed over and over again with guilt and sadness and longing. Ever since I lost him, I've been thinking and saying that it should have been me, and even now I still think that. He was the better person. He was the one who impacted so many people he met, and the person who saved me back then. There were so many times that one phone call or text from him at the right time was all that kept me living. Even now when I think I should just give up.. he's one of the people that comes to my mind and keeps me steady. I could never repay him. I wish I could have been better at expressing myself, I worry so much now. I just hope he knew how much I loved him. Ah... I didn't mean to write a sob fest. It's just now that March and the one year anniversary is approaching, I feel even worse.....
 
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I've been told that time heals, but all time has done is let my heart ache even more. You can't put a time on how long grief lasts, but I always thought that now, nearly a year later, I would feel somewhat ok. I just... I want my best friend back. Some days it's easier, and I can just appreciate the days he was alive, or at least believe that he still is... but most days it just hurts. Emotional pain is the worst, every day it feels like I'm getting stabbed over and over again with guilt and sadness and longing. Ever since I lost him, I've been thinking and saying that it should have been me, and even now I still think that. He was the better person. He was the one who impacted so many people he met, and the person who saved me back then. There were so many times that one phone call or text from him at the right time was all that kept me living. Even now when I think I should just give up.. he's one of the people that comes to my mind and keeps me steady. I could never repay him. I wish I could have been better at expressing myself, I worry so much now. I just hope he knew how much I loved him. Ah... I didn't mean to write a sob fest. It's just now that March and the one year anniversary is approaching, I feel even worse.....
I understand what you're going through, love. I've lost quite a few people around me and it really hurts to know that they've left me alone. I get where you are coming from, but you 'repaying' him, would be to live on and keep letting the world know what he did to keep you ticking. Be the something that keeps someone else ticking and keep it going. It will get hard at times, especially close to anniversaries, but you just have to brave through it and tell yourself that it'll be ok. It's ok to cry and grieve, but you can't let that pull you away from reality and push away the people you care about most. If it's easier, think about what he would say to you in that situation and let that guide you in the right direction. But it isn't all over, Izz. My PMs is always open if you want to talk. I feel like if anyone can understand, I would. I've lost so many and I've gotten this far. I want to help you get this far too. Take care, love.
 

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I understand what you're going through, love. I've lost quite a few people around me and it really hurts to know that they've left me alone. I get where you are coming from, but you 'repaying' him, would be to live on and keep letting the world know what he did to keep you ticking. Be the something that keeps someone else ticking and keep it going. It will get hard at times, especially close to anniversaries, but you just have to brave through it and tell yourself that it'll be ok. It's ok to cry and grieve, but you can't let that pull you away from reality and push away the people you care about most. If it's easier, think about what he would say to you in that situation and let that guide you in the right direction. But it isn't all over, Izz. My PMs is always open if you want to talk. I feel like if anyone can understand, I would. I've lost so many and I've gotten this far. I want to help you get this far too. Take care, love.
Thank you so much. I really try my best to stay strong, it just gets so difficult. I feel like my whole life is defined by all the losses I've had.. but I don't want it to be that way anymore. I just hope all these feelings can leave soon. I can't deal with this much grief added onto to everything else much longer.
 
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Thank you so much. I really try my best to stay strong, it just gets so difficult. I feel like my whole life is defined by all the losses I've had.. but I don't want it to be that way anymore. I just hope all these feelings can leave soon. I can't deal with this much grief added onto to everything else much longer.
It'll go away soon. I promise that to you. Just take care. You can message me if it gets worse from here. Love you. :pikahappy:
 

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