Thank you so much.Good luck to you! Don't give up <3 I really hope everything is gonna be okay.
Thank you so much.Good luck to you! Don't give up <3 I really hope everything is gonna be okay.
I proud of you for calling them c: and they should have called you back by now >:o that's annoying.I did but the process is taking a long time. It's been about two months since I did it and they haven't called me back yet, it doesn't help that people from AKP have decided to come and harass me and bring their shit from AKP over here in my anon.
I'm proud of you for making progress! You can do it, I believe in you c: It's okay if your expectations aren't high, just try your best. Progress, even if it's the tiniest bit, is what matters.In January I start going to a new school again. I'm excited, but I'm also pretty nervous for it. If you don't know this about me, I'm agoraphobic and I have Panic Disorder. (Look it up if you need to.) Basically I get panic attacks when I'm in crowded public places or when I travel to far from home. My new school is a lot closer to my house than my current school which 30 minutes away. Around two summers ago I had a problem where I was getting panic attacks almost daily and it got to the point where I couldn't leave my neighborhood for 4 months. I've made a lot of progress since then, however my anxiety is still pretty bad and I still had do most of my classes online. I also don't go into public places that often. I can go to therapy and the dollar store, but those still give me anxiety. I was able to go attend a class on campus last semester, but it was very difficult. I missed a lot of the classes and sometimes we'd drive to the school and I would be too scared to go into it. I'm afraid of it happening again. Next semester I am probably going to take 4 classes. My new school doesn't offer a lot of classes online so I'm gonna have to attend classes on campus no matter what. The problem with that is I can only stay in a public setting for so long. After an hour I start to get anxious and I'm ready to go home. Staying at school for 2-3 hours sounds like a nightmare to me. I'm hoping that I'm not making a mistake by enrolling into this school. I know it sounds stupid, but it's still making me anxious. It's only two months away and I have a lot of work to do. I've been practicing driving there with my mom, but I still get pretty anxious when we drive there. It's only 10 minutes away from where I live and it's still hard to get there without any anxiety. I just don't want another repeat of what happened last semester. I hate this. I really want to attend this school because it feels like I'll have another chance to make new friendsand maybe a cute boy. I hate not having any real life friends. I haven't had any since 8th grade, but I feel like no one would want to be my friend because I can't just go out and do normal things such as going out to eat, shopping, the movies, etc. I feel lonely a lot of the time because I don't have any real life friends. I'm trying my best not to get my hopes up for next semester. I don't want to doubt myself, but I don't want to set my expectations to high either because I'll end up being disappointed again....
Thank you! I went through a lot to get into this school so I'm hoping that everything will turn out okay. I'm gonna make sure I do the best that I can. <3I'm proud of you for making progress! You can do it, I believe in you c: It's okay if your expectations aren't high, just try your best. Progress, even if it's the tiniest bit, is what matters.
Thank you Koala. <3@lexuswoo I’m proud of you and you can do it <3 Remember the turtle always run the race against the hare.
I wish you all the bestThank you! I went through a lot to get into this school so I'm hoping that everything will turn out okay. I'm gonna make sure I do the best that I can. <3
You're so nice, I am really thankful! It feels great reading what you write, it gives me a little hope. Thank you really, you don't know how much this means right now.@Soleski I won’t reply,but I do relate. One day a spark will slowly come back into our lives. I’m also taking steps even when people tried to help me. It’s all a process,and the first step is to become aware there’s aware. Just slowly update how you’re doing and I’m here if you ever feel you’re alone. You truly never will be. May you one day find your answer
Because you are a bright star like the others. We gotta make sure you shine. You’re a wonderful person even hearing you say this means a lot. I hope you can slowly move forward and find the hurt.You're so nice, I am really thankful! It feels great reading what you write, it gives me a little hope. Thank you really, you don't know how much this means right now.
I'm glad you feel better Lex c: and omg they want to add it to their therapy clinic :D I'm so proud TTSo,I started really taking more steps of improving myself even outside and working out. Last night,a lot of people I was friends with in the past I had to cut out so I can stay away,came back and I feel so much happier. We’re making steps to hang out. I haven’t been with anyone for 8 months aside from my mother,sisters and two friends.
I’m starting to feel more confident as I slowly find more solutions. I’m so glad I’m a year closer to leaving my old self behind. Just to repair what the destructive side of me destroyed. I feel like for once when I go outside at night to look at the stars, I feel I’m getting my glimmer back. My art work has even been improving and I’m not scared of showing people anymore. I used to be scared because it showed what was wrong with my head. Now someone even offered me 200$ and said they want to add it into their therapy clinic.
I’m so happy my hobbies are finally getting their spark returned,and I accepted there will be days it’s down
X) Changed it for reasonsI'm glad you feel better Lex c: and omg they want to add it to their therapy clinic :D I'm so proud TT
You're getting your spark back, and it's beautiful c:
also your name :o
lol no I got hate sent to me and hate sent about a friend on the KPS anon...so no not really.I proud of you for calling them c: and they should have called you back by now >:o that's annoying.
Has the AKP thing died down yet?
I’ve heard some AKP drama has carried over ;-; hate anons are not okay tho hasn’t this happened enoughlol no I got hate sent to me and hate sent about a friend on the KPS anon...so no not really.
Thank youI'm sorry that you're going through all of this. You don't deserve to feel this way. It's ridiculous that you're getting blamed for how you feel. No one has complete control over their emotions. Sometimes we feel happy, other times we feel distraught. Feelings always come and go. I just want you to remember that you won't feel this way forever. I know that it's hard to believe, but things really do get better. It just takes a lot of time. You deserve to have a happy and successful life no matter what. I hope you can find another doctor or therapist that doesn't blame you for how you feel. They shouldn't make you feel worse than you already do. Good luck with everything.
I wish.I’ve heard some AKP drama has carried over ;-; hate anons are not okay tho hasn’t this happened enough