I’m getting sick and tired of being alone. I haven’t had any real life friends since I was 13, and when I was friends with them we didn’t even know each other personally yet. At first the loneliness wasn’t that bad back then. Of course I still wanted friends, but still had my family to keep me company and I was content with that. Over time though, the loneliness has gotten a lot worse. I’m beginning to have a lot of crying spells over it. Because of my anxiety I can’t just go out and do normal things. I can’t work, I can’t go to school on campus, I can’t out to eat, etc. I tried to find places to volunteer at and there’s practically nothing I can do. I tried looking into it as an attempt to make friends, but it was just pointless. Either the people I would work with would be way older than me, or I’d have to do things that cause me a great amount of anxiety. I tried talking to my mom about this and I get nowhere. It feels like she doesn’t even care. Even if I’m crying my eyes out she doesn’t even care. She just tells me that “we’ll figure something out”. There’s pretty much nothing else I can do so there’s nothing to “figure out” anymore.
I’m just tired of it. My mom has a husband and my nephew. My brother has his son and my other brother has his friends and lives 8 hours away. As for me, I have no one close to me. I don’t have a friend. I’ve never even had a boyfriend. I’m stuck in my room the whole day, while my mom and everyone stays in the living room. I feel like I’d never be good enough to be anyone’s friend or girlfriend anymore. No one would want to be friends with someone who can barely go out in public and leave her house. I don’t want to give up on making friends, but as this point, I feel like it’s pountless to even try anymore.
I’m just tired of it. My mom has a husband and my nephew. My brother has his son and my other brother has his friends and lives 8 hours away. As for me, I have no one close to me. I don’t have a friend. I’ve never even had a boyfriend. I’m stuck in my room the whole day, while my mom and everyone stays in the living room. I feel like I’d never be good enough to be anyone’s friend or girlfriend anymore. No one would want to be friends with someone who can barely go out in public and leave her house. I don’t want to give up on making friends, but as this point, I feel like it’s pountless to even try anymore.